Diary of Someone

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I wish I could be in love more than this.

A love with with no doubt.

I hate being in doubt.

More than being in love, I'm in doubt these days.

I miss loving someone extremely.

I miss my heart beat.

I miss feeling lonely.

The most lonely person is the boy who loves me...

I should love him more, he deserves it...

I should sleep...to see him tomorrow while I'm in a good mood...

He is handsome, He is extremely kind and lovely, He is so clever, I really like this feature 

he is 13 years older than me, but he's like a baby boy always, 0101

I want him in some ways, but not in some other ways...

he has some white and gray hairs...

I feel bad when he feels bad...I think this can be called love..I dunno

I want him more from sex aspects and touching stuff and for traveling and having fun , I'm not sure about wanting him deeply even if he got sick or sad or broke financially ...

I imagine living with him, what he talked about it several time before...

I like living and experiencing such a life ...but as myself know...my beauty is fake and I'm not good enough for marriage and also I nag a lot and I'm always  indecisive....

But he loves me...

فردا دارم میرم دیدنش....

بعد از سه هفته...

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